When the Sun Don’t Shine

January 19, 2009

The laughter fades and the dawn never breaks
So still is the air
When the laughter isn’t there


On the Precipice of Now

October 23, 2008

Do I step forward
and fall deeper into you?

Or do I step backward
and continue my own personal slide into hell?


Toxicity

October 22, 2008

My love for you is real
I mean it

I love you

My love for you is real
A necessity

Like oil is for cars
Like coal is for electricity
Like nuclear is for bombs
Like decomposition is for death

My love for you is real
I mean it

I love you
And I’m sorry


The Way Things Are

October 21, 2008

I’m happy
Oh so happy
That things are
the way they are

And things are
The way they are
Because we are
The way we are

So I’m happy
Oh so happy
That things are
As they should be
Because we are
As we always
Will be


No Matter

October 20, 2008

No matter
That we never laugh anymore

No matter
That we never even talk anymore

We used to laugh
When we used to talk
But now we never talk

No matter
How much we have to say


No(n)sense

October 20, 2008

I hear the words coming out of my mouth
Their sounds reverberate in my ears
And I understand them

But within the space
from the time my words leave my mouth
and reach your ears

Something happens

I’m not sure what it is

Perhaps it’s some supra natural force
That is yet undiscovered, undefined

That changes them mid-flight

Into something unintelligible

Something pathetic

Something ridiculous

Something other than what I intended


I Love You But

October 20, 2008

I love you but
I wonder if that’s enough
For you
to overcome a lifetime of
bitter memories trapped inside your head
and heart

Memories that will never part
No matter how long they have survived
My many attempts to destroy them by
creating new
and better ones

Ones that you always had wished for
Ones that you had always blamed me for
never giving you

Instead I gave you the ones you have now
The ones that will never part
No matter how long they have survived
My many attempts to destroy them


How Many Times Does It Take

October 19, 2008

How many times does it take
for me to understand
that for me to understand
your point of view
You don’t need to understand
mine


Our Difference

October 19, 2008

You minus me equals you
Me minus you equals you


The Sum of Me

October 19, 2008

You plus nothing


Idea of Love

October 18, 2008

You
Artist of Love
Chiseling away at your masterpiece
Intently
Contentedly
Purposefully creating the
Ideal Representation
Of your Idea of Love

While chiseled pieces of my marble heart
Lie scrapped and trodden on the dusty
Forgotten floor


Martyr Me

October 17, 2008

I die and I die and I die
Every day I wake
I die and I die and I die
All for the cause
Of you


Managing Expectations

October 16, 2008

I cant manage.

Don’t expect it.